Sorry by 张学友

hungry.. 33 more internal licenses to create.. [x_x] staring at the screen, auto pilot mode, mind blank.. yanzi album releasing tmr.. anticipating..

She's a Rebel by Green Day

Yet the end of another week.. Same stuff same work.. same monotone life..

Arrived at office at ard 8.15.. a big feat.. budden i was supposed to be in by 8 for an engagement meeting.. hahhhaha.. still late.. blahhh.. sneaked in the room, trying not to sleep for 2 hrs.. then some smartbadge stuff.. yawning like mad for the next 2 hrs.. pengz~~~

Went yuchen house for steamboat~ kekekkekek~~ regret missing the purchasing part as i was delayed by punching the aug D/Os.. took me like 30 min to punch thru them n file them.. kaoz.. ok back to the purchasing part.. i arrived jus to pay $$.. darn.. n i din check wat they bought.. went back into ntuc to get the jin zhen gu dat they dunno wat it was.. then met up with birdy n off we went to yuchen's house.. all the cleaning part, opening cans, cutting blah blah blah.. then we realised we missed out a few stuff.. WHERE'S THE CABBAGE?? WHERE'S THE TANG HOON.. haiz.. me n birdy were kicking ourselves for not arriving earlier.. then it was the hunt for the can opener.. couldnt find so gotta use an old one.. danny was fighting with a can of mushroom i think.. opened a few holes.. (see below) hahhahhah.. darn funny..


Danny's Masterpiece

All's set for our steamboat dinner~~ with ginseng chicken soup base~~


Food for Steamboat~

We ate for like.. 2 hrs? sitting thru SI and Ren Wo Ao You.. hahhhaha.. SI is really commercialised... hate it.. budden the olinda is really power.. n got the ella pattern.. hahhahha.. then sat thru ren wo ao you.. i din chase the series.. hmm.. doesnt look nice oso... the steamboat.. hmm.. ok lah.. the dumplings r nice.. the jin zhen gu~~ superb~~ hahhahhah.. n the fellas were searching for veggie abalone n stuff dat were sunken at the bottom..

Next up.. ICE CREAM.. ok lah.. wasnt really excited over it.. its been an ice cream week oso... at home got ice cream.. go everywhere oso ice cream.. but it wasnt my wish.. took a few pics to gek grace~ kkakakkkakka... yuchen drove us home after dat... 4 person squeezing behind~ hahah..


Eating Ice Cream~

sat.. hmm.. went raffles place after drums.. bought justice n buster.. (astray haven finish yet arh..) anyway there's a 20% off so.. ok lah.. buy n keep.. hahhah.. then went toa payoh.. FOUND MY FUSHIGI YUUGI~~ hahhahha.. so happy.. bought it.. wait for birdy they all to tt me back the $$ as it was my bday pressie~~ reserved another set for grace.. made a member card with shaman king on the cover.. darn my wallet is like bursting at the seams with so many cards.. watched destiny after i went home.. wahh impulse gundam quite nice.. hahahhha.. budden din see it in stores.. gotta wait..

today.. hmm.. hmmm.. hmm.... dreamt dreamt dreamt.. zzz zzz zzz... think i was awake for less than 8 hrs?? power.. jus came back from JE library to return my books.. nothing much...

work tmr again.. haiz.. haiz....

American Idiot by Green Day

Back to the familiar office, the familiar stacks of stuff dat i dun wanna see on my table, the familiar pc which errored my outlook twice, the familiar heaps of emails.... n i was only on leave for.. 2 days!! blahh.. at least i'm connected back to the virtual world.. the comp at home totally crashed yest.. n i totally threw in my gloves.. or shoes?? watever.. its means i gave up... (2 mths.. 2 mths.. still tolerating..) my uncle kidnapped the whole cpu home last nite to reformat it.. brought it back tis morning.. gotta test it out later..

^_^ finally can blog abt my weekend.. on leave on fri.. did.. NOTHING!!~~ ahohoho.. laze on bed.. played the comp when it was still working.. read some stuff.. zzz.. dats it.. one day gone..

sat.. drums.. hmm... ok lah ok lah.. mai hiam bueh pai.. jus the extra stress sitting next to anthony.. ahahha.. darn i gotta try to avoid dat seat in future.. after drums went Forum to meet up with pearl they all.. i was early.. very early.. took me like.. 30 min to walk from PS to Forum.. making stops in between to kino n cd-rama.. went toy r'us to jalan a bit b4 jeff called.. met him, waited for like another 15 min b4 pearl n diana reached.. n another like... 15 min b4 jes reached.. serene got stuck at JB n reached.. 2 and a half hrs later.. which is.. 9 pm.. hahha.. by then we've already finished our dinner, saved some for her.. tok kok, took pics, crapped ard.. ahhhah..


Looking bored while waiting for Serene...

We started our gift exchanging when she arrives... it was a darn funny process ok.. each of us have to bring one gift, UNISEX, btwn 10-20 bucks for exchange.. then jess suggested her method of exchanging.. something like she keyed in the names n the no. in her hp n everyone else chooses a number n gets the gift brought by the person who's allocated to the number.. 1st round.. quite ok.. except dat jes already read pearl's present.. then she insisted on a redraw.. ok.. 2nd round.. all ok.. except dat jes AGAIN.. got her own present.. kk we decided on another method.. i drew 2 sets of 6 numbers n got them to pick 1 from each set... 1st set representing their present no. 2nd set representing the present no. they'll get... n then.. COINCIDENTALLY... we all got back our own presents.. [-_-"] roar of laughters.. then jeff suggests only the 1 person takes from the 2nd set at a time.. if the no. coincides.. PICK AGAIN.. hahahhah.. finally all settled... i got jeff's, diana got mine, jeff got jes's, pearl got diana's, jes got serene's, serene got pearl's.. ahhaha.. then we drew again for xmas gift exchanging.. i'm supposed to get for serene.. hmm.. a bit the tough to find something practical for an air-stewardess..


Our presents~ (An Afro Wine!!~~~ ahahhah.. dat was some shower stuff from diana..)

initially we wanted to sit somewhere n chill after dinner.. so we walked from forum to taka to somerset.. n finally... we decided to go home.. ahahahha.. anyway serene's gota flight in the early morning.. n we're all tired after the walk.. i went to sleep with tired knees ok..

went online after i reached home.. trying to dl the windows svc pack.. discussed with the dippers abt sunday.. craps more than discussing.. finally dismissed the meeting at ard 1.30.. when we only settled on where n wat time we're meeting.. power.. hahahhah.. birdy called at 12 to sing me a bday song when i was tokking to her in msn~~ hahhhahah.. made me laff.. i slept ard 3.30!!! all bcos of the stupid comp n svc pack.. blahh.. it sux..

sun~~~ alarm went off at 8.. blahh.. dragged myself to see the dling process of the svc pack... NOT FINISHED YET!!~~ dropped myself to bed again.. woke up at 9.. couldnt slack in bed any longer or i wun wake up till 11.. plonked my whole weight onto the comp chair.. fiddled ard a bit.. then hurriedly bath, packed up, n left home for BEACH!!!~~~ hoohohohoho~~

was a bit late meeting yuchen at lakeside mrt.. hmm.. he a bit the black face.. dun dare to say much.. got down at dover to wait for birdy~~ then went harbourfront to meet up with emily n andrew... was already close to 12.. went cold storage for titbits n stuff.. n took the bus into sentosa~~ transferred to another bus which got us to.. hmm.. close to palawan beach.. n so we walked.. perhaps ard 1 km.. to a deserted spot.. couldnt find the even more isolated spot we went to the other time..


Palawan Beach

birdy's sandals broke n so me n emily accompanied her to find a shop since yuchen oso wanna get a pair of berms jus to get into the water.... n so we walked.. stop 1.. closed for construction.. walked back.. found a stairway with a sign dat writes spa.. climbed more than 100 steps i guess.. (too bad my camera's aint with me thru all these walking.. interesting sights..) reached a .. GOLF COURSE.. walked somemore.. reached a conference centre.. n a hotel.. got shop but all those tourist stuff.. so we waited for the bus.. until emily asked the uncle working there.. who pointed us to a route which we could walk straight down.. ookk.. 100+ steps down but its more well lit then the other ulu stairway.. then we walked all the way past dolphin lagoon, another dunno wat beach.. to ANOTHER beach.. where we reached 7-11 dat area.. i bought a bottle of tanning oil.. yuchen got his berms n birdy's got her slippers.. n i'm having blisters from andrew's slippers.. (borrowed mine to birdy cos her feet's so much smaller than mine..)


In Water~~

Finally we plunged into the water after abt 45 min of walking.. floated ard till the rain came n forced us out.. waited under the tent, took pics while waiting for the rain to stop.. then its volleyball n frisbee time~~ i simply treated the volleyball like a soccerball.. ahhahha.. hands went red from hitting the volleyball.. frisbee was fun~~ then we improvised somemore.. FRISBEE IN WATER~~~ ahohohoho~~~ n then somehow or another we started giving names to ourselves.. mostly mobile suits from gundam seed~~ i.e. the crapping from last nite.. yuchen was freedom (自由), emily was justice (正义), andrew keep saying 民主, which aint any mobile suit.. i was astray.. ended up being 烟灰缸 (ASSTRAY..) ahhahhah.. birdy din watch gundam seed n we called her Duel~ (决斗) and so the crapping continues... n was used to avoid any decision on where to eat after sentosa...


Island??


Behaving like a cow~~ moOOMOoooOooo~~ (dun tell ppl i'm already 22..[-_-"])


We left the lonely sun behind~

We left at 5++ 6 like dat.. n went to suntec for rice table.. ok we're simply too darn tired to enjoy the food.. (which aint really fantastic for $20 per person anyway..) me n birdy shared the cost as it was our birthday... n we also gotta pay for the food for steamboat tis fri.. hmm.. n i haven got my fushigi yuugi... HEYYY!!~~~~~~ took a cab back home.. was tired till birdy zzz thru'out the journey..

thanks to all the folks for spending my bday with me.. paiseh.. was my persistence n 任性 to wanna go to the beach despite u ppl having exams round the corner, emily's having some problems whenever she's at the beach.. hmm.. hehhh... hoo.... dats me lah.. ask me where i wanna go.. = beach.. ahhahahha.. but very thankful for spending the whole day with me.. ^_^

yest.. i slacked the whole day away again.. nothing much... woah nearing lunchtime le.. zzz.. sianz..

Midnight Garden by Bond

I'm 22!!!~~~~~ hehh... no big deal.. quite an excitement filled weekend but i aint gonna post them now.. been having a battle with the comp since yest.. darn.. its super unstable now.. will update on the weekend hmm.. maybe tmr if i win the battle.. (quite hard..) or tues in office bahh.. pretty tired rite now.. gonna upload the pics into the stupid web-a-file n i'll jus jump into bed n snore all the way~~

oh ya.. happy bday to tis site too~~ kekekkeke...

黑白画映 by 张学友

*growl* hungry.. its only like.. lemme see.. 3 hrs since dinner??? arrkkk... attack my oreos later.. finish blogging, slack on bed, fix astray, watch tv, zzz... wat a life.. *help! its monday tmr!!~~*

went out with birdy n emily for ktv~~ actually planned to go kbox clementi but their freaking attitude pisses me off.. *folks, try not to go kbox when u all wanna bring me to ktv k..* went there initially, they say they clearing the room, want us go somewhere wait, 10-15 min ok liao.. so we went upstairs big bookshop.. 15 min.. we went pasar malam.. 30 min.. was contemplating of having lunch since the fella nvr call us.. so ended up we went to check out 1st.. ended up they say they had system problem.. ok i was DARN PISSED LIAO.. i was telling the fella, how come u nvr call us if u had system prob.. nvm i go somewhere else.. i wanted to walk out liao but the 2 others were still standing there.. grr.. bird still processing the info in her brain.. bth.. 8088 comp.. then the fella keep saying wanna transfer us to JE or CCK.. then i told her.. wah piang u want us to go so far.. i wanted to walk out again.. the 2 fella still stuck there.. [-_-"] then she continue to persuade us (more of command ok..) to go to the other branches, lunch time price no matter wat time we arrive, same duration oso... i looked at the 2 of them.. then aiya ok lah.. lazy to continue the fight with 2 ppl stoning.. so we told her we going JE.. then we went for lunch.. then we ended up at.. kekkekkeke... CLEMENTI PARTY WORLD~~~~ mwahhahhahha.. without a word somemore.. mwahhahhah.. who cares.. they nvr told us their system down oso.. wat if we nvr go up? we'll be like idiots ok.. anyway we already look like idiots.. freaking hell..

party world svc is so much better~~~ so so so so much better~~~ n they had NEW SONGS!~~~ hohhohohoo.. system so much better somemore.. althou a bit more ex.. 1st song.. jit jia jiao ahh.. (taiwan song..) haaa...... stupid bird.. go anyhow press.. made us all laff like mad.. its screechingly high, dunno the word pronounciation somemore.. mwahhahha.. after dat its the usual SHE, stef, fish, etc etc.. got nan quan mama~~~ kekkekeke.. xiang cao ba bu.. not bad, i caught most of it.. whahhahha.. n bird can rap san nian er ban!!~~ [0_0] eye opener.. then emily dedicate a lot of duets.. i'm the female for one song, male for the next, i ended up saying watashi wa hentai desu.. kekkekeke.. siao arh.. oh ya~~ got dao dai~~ kekekek.. somehow i sang until very very depressing/sad like dat.. dunno.. its the tune probably.. hehh.. blame on EVERYTHING but myself..

*back starting to ache again.. bloody hell..*

tok abt yest drums.. i'm so proud of me-self.. kekkekekeke.. for one song dat is.. quite zai liao.. althou i think i'll needa refreshment walkthru again next week.. anthony still stuck on those 4 songs.. my text is scribbled with taogehs dat i dun really understand.. forget it.. play anyhow.. fit can liao.. creative nehhh.. wahhahha.. going mad..

was supposed to meet up with xuejun they all.. budden cancelled at last min... hmm.. dunno WHEN will the next gathering be.. me ended up in JE library again..(keep going there these days..) borrowed 3 THICK books.. n i really mean thick.. n big.. ahhahhaha.. one aquarium book (again..) one nutritional book (again!) n one hmm.. self learning book i guess.. hahahhha.. i'm flipping thru them since i've ran outta comics... *ello big dipper.. i want my fushigi yuugi full set.. even thou JE dun have liao.. u all go find.. kekekeke*

i'm gonna face a tough next week i guess.. PWC audit.. submit report.. file D/O.. haiz.. i've created another record with my D/Os.. try.. 2 mths nvr file.. [-_-"] help.. *feeble voice..*

oh ya!! i received an email from eric of tinybox.. hmm.. the email's all in html text formattings.. its like "font=arial" blah blah blah.. took me a hard hard time to decipher.. anyway.. he wanna meet me.. hehhh.. i'm waiting to ask mariel.. see how lah.. i dun have confidence of meeting their expectations..

another week.. another week.. 7 days.. 7 x 24 = 168 hrs... 168 x 60 = 10,080 min.. 10,800 min x 60 = 604,800 sec.. to being 22.. hmm.. but does anyone care?? hmm... HELP!! I'M GOING 22!!!!!!! N I'M STILL SO GINNA~~ SOMEONE STOP THE CLOCK!!! I DUN WANNA BE 22!!! blahhh.. dats me.. cant change me.. too bad..

*oreos.. i'm coming...*

Perfect by Simple Plan

Perfect by Simple Plan

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to the plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Edited at 1:38pm

was woken up tis morning by my hp alarm going off.. n i can still freaking wonder wat appt i had today... i totally forgot its monday.. totally FORGOT abt work.. best..

its been.. hmm.. abt 6 hr since i woke up.. still dazing.. darn hot.. jus came back from outside.. now sitting in office with a large wet patch on my jeans near the knees.. arhh.. i din wee wee on my jeans.. was adjusting the pump power at the fountain then forgot abt the water level.. n there goes my jeans.. (mus really wash liao..)

din waste my sunday for once.. went library with emily to look intellectual (or so she says..) duh.. she wants to borrow some intellectual property books.. ended up mostly reference so she zapped 2 chapters of the book.. 1 chap = abt 60 pages.. [0_0"] i browsed ard waiting for her n borrowed a biotope book, a nutritional book n a natural healing book.. ahhh... books dat sounds weird.. haha.. wonder when i'll be free to even flip them, thou i finished the biotope book while waiting for the zapping.. went IMM after dat n bought some boxes to organise my mess.. finally all my markers n paints have a place.. *grinz* went home.. laze ard.. finished yoiko no mikata.. (forgot show name.. sounds like dat..) quite touching.. a bit crappy.. sho sakurai jus reminds me of domoto tsuyoshi..

saturday.. arhhh.. drums.. quite disastrous when the whole class forgot all the mini songs dat we've learnt.. anthony says next week gotta test on all 4 songs.. *panic* went kino... spent $$ on comics.. AGAIN.. went taman jurong mac.. n spent the next 2-3 hrs like dat calculating my Sept figures.. [-_-||] anyway.. finally finished it after struggling with the damn unsensitive calculator jus bought from kino..

not much abt the rest of last week.. meeting, training, blah blah blah... zzz... back to work le la.. will update again when something interesting pops up.. till then.. hmmm.... kkekekke..

So Faraway by 张智成

Asuran on piggy mooncake given by Emily~~

Day and Night by Tanya Chua

One full moon nite...

Moon of Mid Autumn

At Jurong Park, in the dark... extreme darkness, n eerieness.. some cults were doing their rituals..

Big Dipper Sign~~ (Done by me!!)


Dunno wat.. (Done by Emily..)


Supposedly Pyramid (Done by Bird...)

Part of the cult dancing ritual...

The Kids~ ahaha~~


Ah Boy.. (looks more like ah beng..)


She's drawing her mind~~


Candid-ded shot.. think i was trying to create more spark zones??

The tail.. symbol of a cult member..

Bird candid-ded my "tail" oso..


Taken by surprise but managed a pose...

Another cult dancing ritual...

ACK!! IT HURTS!!

Items necessary for the ritual...

Sparkling Sparklers~


Sparkling~~


Shooting Sparklers~


Woah..


Our Ammunition..


再美的烟火, 也都有黑暗的结局. 有些事物, 失去了就不能从来.

Change of location for the last part of the ritual... (@ taman jurong...)

Sparkers~


Birdy & Emily~


Choked by the smoke...

The Cult members...

The 4 "Big Dippers" under my ah ma block~

终於 by ZaYin

Gundam Seed Cupboard

heez.. went on a shopping spree on sat after drums.. bought 2 sets of figurines.. hmm.. maybe i shldnt walk into La Tendo.. argh.. 2 sets.. $126.. n i spent yest pulling out my cds, arranging my comics, etc etc jus to have a space to put them.. the haros r so cute~ ears can open~~ budden... argh.. no space liao.. n i still have astray waiting for me to open its packaging.. n i dun have aegis n justice yet... [-_-||] will be eating grass for the rest of the mth after the impulsive cldnt resist purchases.. bought a PINK n RED n WHITE checkered shirt from graphis n hmm.. 7 gundam markers... n 2 boxes of mooncake... wat a $$ draining day.. think i gotta check my feng shui.. $$ keep going out like water...

back to work.. sianz.. 20 more days to 22...

Edited at 11.56 am
20 Questions to a Better Personality

Wackiness: 38/100
Rationality: 58/100
Constructiveness: 68/100
Leadership: 46/100

You are a SRCF--Sober Rational Constructive Follower. This makes you a White House staffer.

You are a tremendous asset to any employer, cool under pressure, productive, and a great communicator. You feel the need to right wrongs, take up slack, mediate disputes and keep the peace. This comes from a secret fear that business can't go on without you--or worse, that it can.

If you have a weakness, it is your inability to say "no." While your peers respect you, they find it difficult to resist taking advantage of your positive attitude and eagerness to take on work. You depend on a good manager to keep you from sinking under the weight and burning out.

Of the 31310 people who have taken this quiz since tracking began (8/17/2004), 7.6 % are this type.

Absolutely (Story Of A Girl) by Nine Days

Freedom Gundam


Strike Rouge


Aile Strike Gundam

无底洞 by 蔡健雅

so fast its thurs tmr liao.. i've been in a record no. of meetings tis whole week, esp yest.. 3 meetings thru'out... nvr even had time to do my own stuff.. sianz.. sucky SOX.. i need a chill out~~

WuHa by 潘玮柏

my head feels like a rock, i'm rushing 24 reports to customs by today.. SOX is killing me.. wat permit number missing is irritating me.. the DOs r waiting for me.. my brain is failing me n my eyes r closing on me.. freak out.. i'm on the brink of BURSTING.. i needa DESTRESS!!!~~

别人的天长地久 by 梁静茹

heh.. i cutTED my horrendously thick and long hair yest.. ahhahha.. i dunno how to describe it now.. a bit punkish, looks like something from some manga.. wahahhaha.. n i can tie my "tail"~~ mwehehhehe.. tis was the result of karen's creativity.. left my hair in her hands.. ok lah, at least its not as thick anymore.. its cooler now, thou the fringe's still irritating me..

after dat went back office at 4, darn.. n only was released from the SOX discussion at 7.30.. HEY! IT WAS MY OFF DAY!! grr.. totally wasted one day leave.. darn.. hate SOX.. its simple, jus dat ppl complicate things... haiz..

totally slacked today away while waiting for the guy to gimme instructions to test the Petrolink.. finally able to log in budden i gotta change the system date to get in, which means customs might not be able to receive the data.. anyway, see if i get the acknowledgement tmr.. oh yeah.. bought tix for jay concert~~ kekekkek.. literally spent the whole morning on the sistic website trying to get a good seat.. piangz... the 148 tix only left single seats on the 3rd day of sale!!! wah kaoz.. tis is selling better than sammi's man..

zzz.. play ard a bit more b4 bed bah~

宁夏 by 梁静茹

oh my god... i've 10.5 days leave left.. how to clear.... ahhh.. stuck in office for the stupid sox.. freak out..

Edited at 7.43pm
... still in office.. n it aint my turn yet.. freaking out..

燕尾蝶 by 梁静茹

darn.. diarrhea.. mus be the half carton of milk i drank last nite.. addicted onto frosties and oreos with milk.. cant blame.. hahhahha.. kudos to the ppl who invented them~~

back to recap... hmm.. was it fri? anyway bought 5 more dwarf puffers again last week, 3 were juveniles n r jus abt the size of my nails.. so cute.. n gotta hunt for them during feeding time so dat can "parachute" their food within their proximity.. quite a tank disaster week, lost BOTH my ottos, then my SAE, n finally 1 huge albino cory last nite + a few neons here n there, n OH YA.. my female gupp which was the only survivor i've raised since baby.. wah kaoz.. dat looks a lot when listed out.. dunno wats wrong.. gotta gourami dats bloated for a long time, now's having difficulty swimming.. its not dropsy, maybe swim bladder bah.. either one, i dunno how to fix, caught it out after some chasing ard the tank n left it in another tank.. most of the deaths looks like injuries, esp the albino cory, was struggling when i brought it out to heal, ended up still couldnt make it.. wonder where they injured themselves.. the fiercest SAE was already dead.. hmm.. i've already changed the water, rinsed the filter n caught loads of snails out.. now can only wait n see...

yipz i saw a newspaper clipping abt my sec sch chinese teacher getting some inspiring chinese teacher award.. i was woahhh~~~ NVR TELL US!! hahhahha.. n it was hidden in some constituency papers, who will go n read unless ppl like me who tend to grab something while doing big biz.. she's my FAV teacher n we're her 1st batch of students.. hahah.. she.. fresh outta NIE.. always kana bullied by us, or shld i say, we trained her to become wat she was today.. mwahhahah.. anyway she's an alternative teacher with a bit of china slang which we couldnt really understand in the beginning, n we're always suanning each other.. after our batch, she a bit 发福, maybe bcos dun have powerful opponent for suanning.. hahhha.. she shld've taken tis award earlier liao lo.. i'm taking leave tis wed.. going back sec sch suan her.. hahahh.. we still do keep contact even after 5 yrs since i grad.. she's more of a fren than teacher.. hmm.. if i ever get an award for my lyrics, i'll thank her~~ kekkeeke... dat is if dat day will ever come..

sat.. oh yeah.. no drums no work but i still got up at 7.. (wonders y i cant do dat for work everyday.. hmm..) there was an SHE event n my bro wants to borrow my cam + i'm meeting emily for badminton at 11.. well, there i was, racket slung over my back, cam in the badminton bag, in adidas jersey n converse bball berms at IMM at 8.25.. darn.. tis kinda time during work days i'm still on the train to JE man..


S.H.E

SHE came n went in like HALF AN HOUR.. kaoz.. n i was expecting a huge crowd, ended up only little meows a few, blahh.. it'll be a better choice to zzz in bed.. they came to officiate the opening of some charity car-washing event, "washed" the 95.8fm promotion car (which was already sparkling clean in the 1st place..), then they hurriedly went to catch their flight.. n being the accident prone person i m, i scraped myself on the stupid tap after i almost tripped on all the messy hoses running abt.. n to clarify, I WASNT EVEN RUNNING.. kk the crowd was on one side, i was on the other side to get away from the crowd, then SHE came to wash the other side of the car.. n some crowd followed, i wanna get AWAY!! n ended up with this horrendously long bleeding scratch on my leg.. $#%#^@^%@%#@^#$%


my pig trotter..

kk i left IMM ard 9.45 after washing my wound n pasting a plaster on it.. since it was so bloody early, i WALKED from JE to Jurong West St 52 there.. took me abt 1 hr 15 min.. n.. i got a blister from my now seldom worn adidas.. darn.. waited like 45 min for emily, set up the net, n we only played for like half an hr since emily was late for 20 min.. $%#$^%!@#$!#%#%&.. went home bath, slacked, rot, slept, went JP to meet emily with a stupid umbrella as it was pouring when i left my house but the rain stopped when i was at the void deck.. freak.. had my late lunch or early dinner, jalaned ard, bought 梁静茹's latest album, jalaned somemore, went home... leg n back super pain.. old liao.. wasted my sat.. saw a bit of the awards, congrats to 小寒, eric n tanya~~ ^_^

sun.. wasted another day on the bed, woke up at ard 12, ate, fixed a bit of my Freedom gundam, eyes tired, got back to zzz again, woke up, read a few comics, eat, watch tv, fix gundam, play comp, zzz... [-_-||] n i managed to injure myself again while scraping away the unwanted parts..


injured thumb...

ya.. regarding the news abt sandra quitting ambience.. i could only say ambience lost a gd leader.. hmm.. such a messy state now.. 群龙无首...

眼神 by 孙燕姿

I kapo tis whole story from someone in my Multiply network.. some fren's fren's fren.. read it.. very touching..


Misunderstanding
A fatal misunderstanding and the person who love me the most in this world is gone forever. This is a true story, taken from "Family" (dictated by LD, edited by LSX, translated by SaFe).

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Cruel misunderstandings one after another disrupted the blissful footsteps to our family. Our original intend of having Mother enjoy some quiet and peaceful moments in her remaining years with us went terribly wrong as destiny's secret is finally revealed at a price, every thing became too late.

Just two years after our marriage, hubby brought up the idea of asking Mother to move from the rural hometown and spend her remaining years with us. Hubby's father passed away while he was still very young. Mother endured much hardship and struggled all on her own to provide for him, see him through to a university degree. You could say that she suffered a great deal and did everything you could expect of a woman to bring hubby to where he is today.

I immediately agreed and started packing the spare room, which has a balcony facing the South to let her enjoy the sunshine and plant some greenery. Hubby stood in the bright room, and suddenly just picked me up and started spinning round and round. As I begged him to put me down, he said: "Lets go fetch mother." Hubby is tall and big sized and I love to rest on his chest and enjoy the feeling that he could pick me up at any moment put the tiny me into his pockets. Whenever we have an argument and both refuses to back down, he would pick me up and spin me over his head continuously until I surrender and beg for mercy. I became addicted to this kind of panic-joy feeling.

Mother brought along her countryside habits and lifestyle with her. For example; I am so used to buying flowers to decorate the living room, she could not stand it and would comment: "I do not know how you young people spend your money, why do you buy flowers for? You also can't eat the flowers!" I smiled and said: "Mum, with flowers in the house, our mood will also become better." Mother continues to grumble away, and hubby smiled: "Mum, this is a city-people's habit; slowly you will get use to it."

Mother stopped saying anything. But every time thereafter, whenever I came home with flowers, she would ask me how much it costs. I told her and she would shake her head and express displeasure. Sometimes, when I come home with lots of shopping bags, she would ask each and every item how much they cost, I would tell her honestly and she would get even more upset about it. Hubby playfully pinched my nose and said: "You little fool, just don't tell her the full price of everything would solve it." There begins the friction to our otherwise happy lifestyle.

Mother hates it most when hubby wakes up early to prepare the breakfast. In her view, how could the man of the house cook for the wife? At the breakfast table, mother facial expression is always like the dark clouds before a thunderstorm and I would pretend not to notice. She would use her chopsticks and make a lot of noise with it as her silent protest. As I am a dance teacher in the Children's Palace and is exhausted from a long day of dancing around, I do not wish to give up the luxury of that additional few minutes in the comfort of my bed and hence I turned a deaf ear to all the protest mother makes.

From time to time, mother would help out with some housework, but soon her help created additional work for me. For example: she would keep all kinds of plastic bags accumulating them so that she sell them later on, and that resulted in our house being filled with all the trash bags; She would scrimp on dish washing detergent when helping to wash the dishes and so as not to hurt her feelings, I would quietly wash then again. One day, late at night, mother saw me quietly washing the dishes, and "Bam" she slams her bedroom door and cried very loudly in her room.

Hubby was placed in a difficult position, and after that, he did not speak to me for that entire night. I pretended to be a spoilt child, tried acting cute, but he totally ignored me. I got mad and asked him: "What did I do wrong?" Hubby stared at me and said: "Can't you just give in to her once? We couldn't possibly die eating from a bowl however unclean it is, right?"

After that incident, for a long period of time, mother did not speak to me and you can feel that there is a very awkward feeling hanging in the house. During that period of cold war, hubby was caught in dilemma as to who to please.

In order to stop her son from having to prepare breakfast, mother took on the "all important" task of preparing breakfast without any prompting. At the breakfast table, mother would look at hubby happily eating his breakfast and cast that reprimanding stare at me for failing to perform my duty as a wife. To avoid the embarrassing breakfast situation, I resorted to buying my own breakfast on my way to work.

That night, while in bed, hubby was a little upset and asked me: "LD, is it because you think that mum's cooking is not clean that's why you choose not to eat at home?" He then turned his back on me and left me alone in tears as feeling of unfairness overwhelmed me. After some time, hubby sighed: "LD, just for me, can you have breakfast at home?" I was left with no choice but to return to the breakfast table.

The next morning, I was having porridge prepared by mother and I felt a sudden churn in my stomach and everything inside seem to be rushing up my throat. I tried to suppress the urge to throw up but I couldn't. I threw down the bowl and rushed into the washroom and vomited everything. Just as I was catching my breath, I saw mother crying and grumbling very loudly in her dialect, hubby was standing at the washroom doorway staring at me with fire burning in his eyes. I opened my mouth out no words came out of it, I really didn't mean it.

We had our very first big fight that day; mother took a look at us, then stood up and slowly made her way out of the house. Hubby gave me a final stare in the eye and followed mother down the stairs. For three days, hubby did not return home, not even a phone call. I was so furious, since mother arrived; I had been trying my best and putting up with her, what else do you want me to do? For no reason, I kept having the feeling to throw up and I simply have not appetite for food, coupled with all the events happening at home, I was at the low point in my life. Finally, a colleague said: "LD,you look terrible, you should go and see a doctor."

The doctor confirmed that I am pregnant. Now it became clear to me why I threw up that fateful morning, a sense of sadness floated through that otherwise happy news. Why didn't hubby, and mother who had been through this before, thought of the possibility of this being the reason that day? At the hospital entrance, I saw my hubby standing there. It had only been three days, but he looked haggard. I had wanted to turn and leave, but one look at him and my heart soften, I couldn't resist and called out to him. He followed my voice and finally found me but he pretended that he doesn't know me; he has that disgusted look in his eyes that cut right
through my heart.

I told myself not to look at him anymore, and hail a cab. At that moment, I have such a strong urge inside me to shout to my hubby: "Darling,I am having your baby!" and have him lift me up and spin me round in circles of joy. What I wanted didn't happen and as I sat in the cab, my tears started rolling down. Why? Why our love couldn't even withstand the test of one fight? Back home, I lay on the bed thinking about my hubby, and the disgusted look in his eyes. I cried and wet the corner of the blanket.

That night, sound of the drawers opening woke me up. I switched on the lights and I saw hubby with tears rolling down his face. He was removing the money. I stared at him in silence; he ignored me, took the bank deposit book and some money, and left the house. Maybe he really intends to leave me for good. What a rational man, so clear-cut in love and money matters. I gave a few dried laugh and tears starting streaming down again.

The next day, I did not go to work. I wanted to clear this out and have a good talk with hubby. I reached his office and his secretary gave me a weird look and said: "Mr. Tan's mother had a traffic accident and is now in the hospital." I stood there in shock. I rushed to the hospital and by the time I found hubby, mother had already passed away. Hubby did not look at me, his face was expressionless.

I looked at mother's pale white and thin face and I couldn't control the tears in my eyes. My god, how could this happen? Throughout the funeral, hubby did not say a single word to me, with only the occasional disgusted stare at me. I only managed to find out brief facts about the accident from other people. That day, after mother left the house, she walked in dazed toward the bus stop, apparently intending to go back to her old house back in the countryside. As hubby ran after her, she tried to walk faster and as she tried to cross the street, a public bus came and hit her...

I finally understood how much hubby must hate me, if I had not thrown up that morning, if we had not quarreled, if... In his heart, I am indirectly the killer of his mother. Hubby moved into mother's room and came home every night with a strong liquor smell on him. And me, I am buried under the guilt and self pity and could hardly breathe. I wanted to explain to him, tell him that we are going to have our baby soon, but each time, I saw the dead look in his eyes, all the words I have at the brink of my mouth just fell back in. I had rather he hit me real hard or give me a big and thorough scolding though none of these events happening had been my fault at all.

Many days of suffocating silence went by and as the days went by, hubby came home later and later. The deadlock between us continues. We were living together like strangers who don't know each other. I am like the dead knot in his heart.

One day, I passed by a western restaurant, looking into the glass window, I saw hubby and a girl sitting facing each other and he very lightly brushed her hair for her, I understood what it meant. After recovering from that moment of shock, I entered the restaurant, stood in front of my hubby and stared hard at him, not a tear in my eyes. I have nothing to say to him, and there is no need to say anything. The girl looked at me, and then at hubby, stood up and wanted to go.. Hubby stretched out his hand and stopped her. He stared back at me, challenging me. I can only hear my slow heart beat, beating, one by one as if at the brink of death. I eventually backed down. If I had stood that any longer, I will collapse together with the baby inside me.

That night, he did not come home. He had chosen to use that as a way to indicate to me: Following mother's death so did our love for each other. He did not come home anymore after that. Sometimes, when I returned home from work, I can tell that the cupboard had been touched - he had returned to take some of his stuff. I no longer wish to call him; the initial desire to explain everything to him vanished.

I lived alone; I went for my medical checkups alone, my heart broke again and again every time I see a guy carefully helping his wife through the physical examination. My office colleagues hinted to me to consider aborting the baby, I told them No, I will not. I insisted on having this baby, perhaps it is my way of repaying mother for causing her death.

One day, I came home and I saw hubby sitting in the living room. The whole house was filled with cigarette smoke. On the coffee table, there was this piece of paper. I know what it is all about without even looking at it. In the two months plus of living alone, I have gradually learned to find peace within myself. I looked at him, removed my hat and said: "Wait for a while, I will sign." He looked at me, mixed feelings in his eyes, just like mine. As I hang up my coat, I keep repeating to myself "You cannot cry, you cannot cry..." my eyes hurt terribly, but I refused to let tears come out from there.

After I hung up my coat, hubby's eyes stared fixed at my bulging tummy. I smiled, walked over to the coffee table and pull the paper towards me. Without even looking at what it says, I signed my name on it and pushed the paper to him.

" LD, you are pregnant?" Since mother's accident, this is the first time he spoke to me. I could not control my tears any further and they fell like raindrops. I said: "Yes, but its ok, you can leave now." He did not go, in the dark, we sat, facing each other. Hubby slowly moved over me, his tears wet the blanket. In my heart, everything seems so far away, so far that even if I sprint, I could never reach them.

I cannot remember how many times he repeated "sorry" to me, I had originally thought that I would forgive him, but now I can't. In the western restaurant, in front of that girl, that cold look in his eyes, I will never forget, ever. We have drawn such deep scares in each other's heart. For me, its unintentional; for him, totally intentional. I had been waiting for this moment of reconciliation, but I realized now, what had gone past is gone forever and could not be repeated. Other than the thought of the baby inside me that would bring some warmth to my heart, I am
totally cold towards him, I no longer eat anything he buys for me, I don't take any presents from him and I stopped talking to him. From the moment I signed on that piece of paper, marriage and love had vanished from my heart.

Sometimes, hubby will try to come into the bedroom, but when he walks in, I will walk out to the living room. He had no choice but to sleep in mother's room. At night, from his room, I can hear light sounds of groaning, I kept quiet. This used to be his trick; in the past, whenever I ignored him, he would fake illness. I will surrender and find out what was wrong with him, he would then grabbed me and laughed. He has forgotten that last time; I cared for him and am concerned because there is love, but now,what is there between us?

Hubby's groaning came on and off continuing all the way till baby was born. Almost everyday, he would buy something for the baby, infant products, children products and books that kids like to read. Bags and bags of it stacked inside his room till it was full. I knew he was trying to use this to reach out to me, but I was no longer moved by his actions. He has no choice but to lock himself in his room. I can hear him typing away on his computer keyboard, maybe he is now addicted to web surfing, but none of that matters to me anymore.

It was sometime towards the end of spring in the following year, one late night, I screamed because of a sudden stomach pain, hubby came rushing into the room, its like he did not change and sleep, and had been waiting for this moment. He carried me and ran down the stairs, stopped a car, holding my hand very tightly and kept wiping the sweat off my brow, throughout the journey to the hospital. Once we reached the hospital, he carried me and hurried into the delivery suite. Lying on the back of his skinny but warmth body, a thought crossed my mind: In my lifetime, who else would love me as much as he did?

He held the delivery suite door opened and watched me enter, his warm eyes caused me to managed a smile at him despite my contraction pain. Coming out of the delivery room, hubby looked at our son, and I, his eyes cried with joy and he kept smiling. I reached out and touched his hand. Hubby looked at me, smiling and then he slowly collapsed onto the floor. I cried out for him in pain. He smiled, but without opening that tired eyes of his. I had thought that I would never shed any tear for him, but the truth was, I have never felt a deeper pain cutting through my body at that moment.

Doctor said that by the time hubby discovered he had liver cancer, and it was already in terminal stage. It was a miracle that he managed to last this long. I asked the doctor "When did he first discover he had cancer?".

Doctor said about 5 months ago and consoled me saying: "Prepare for his funeral."

I disregarded the nurse's objection and rushed home, I went into his room and checked his computer, and a suffocating pain hit me. Hubby's cancer was discovered 5 months ago. His groaning was real, and I had thought that...

The computer showed over 200 thousand words he wrote for our son: "Son, just for you, I have persisted, to be able to take a look at you before I fall, is my biggest wish now... I know that in your life, you will have many happiness and maybe some setbacks, if only I can accompany you throughout that journey, how nice would it be. But daddy now no longer has that chance. Daddy has written inside here all the possible difficulties and problems you may encounter during your lifetime, when you meet with these problems, you can refer to daddy's suggestion... Son, after writing these 200 thousand words, I feel as if I have accompanied you through your life journey. To be honest, daddy is very happy. Do love your mother, she has suffered, she is the one who loves you most and also the one who loves me most..."

From play school to primary school, to secondary, university, to work and even in dealing with questions of love, everything important and insignificant was written there.

Hubby has also written a letter for me: "My dear, to marry you is my biggest happiness, forgive me for the pain I have caused you, forgive me for not telling you my illness, because I wanted to see you be in a joyful mood waiting for the arrival of our baby... My dear, if you cried, it means that you have forgiven me and I would smile, thank you for loving me... These presents, I'm afraid I cannot give them to our son personally, could you help me to give some of them to him every year, the dates on what to give when are all written on the packaging..."

Going back to the hospital, hubby was still in coma. I brought our son over and placed him beside him. I said: "Open your eyes and smile, I want our son to remember being in the warmth of your arms..." He struggled to open his eyes and managed a weak smile. Our son was still in his arms and happily waving his tiny hands in the air when I pressed the button on the camera and the sound of the shutter rang thought the air as tears slowly rolled down my face...

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*Moral of the story: treasure wat u have now, u nvr noe when they'll be taken from u..*

Desire by Do As Infinity

This is one cute guy i'm gonna look out for in the next nba season..

Phoenix's new signing...


Yuta Tabuse


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江南 by 林俊杰

You have a Calm Soul! Being calm and cool is what
you do best. Your collected thoughts and always
positive attitude make you very bright and
logical. When theres a problem, you know how to
approach it, and solve it. Your friends rely on
you on their problems, and your shoulder for
their crying. You are peaceful, and enjoy
nature and freedom. You rarely get angry and
hardly scream, which makes you good with kids.
You seem to be in tune with the world and if
anything goes wrong, you always bounce back.


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Deep Forest by Do As Infinity

work sux... monday sux.. kk i'm having monday blues + women's problems.. everything sux to me now.. coming into office on the 1st day of another week, faced with work dat's stacking to my height.. deadline's approaching in 4 days time.. my Freedom gundam's only 40% finished.. i wanna personal room, where i can jam on a keyboard or strum away or jus do mixing on the comp like no one's biz... i wanna inspirations which i CAN rem.. i wanna laptop or a personal comp.. my account's dropping like freefall, later gotta deposit some $$ back.. (cant they jus IB to me.. #$^#%@$$@%#..)thou i'm not needed to wear formal to work.. somewhere deep inside me wants to wear smart shirts n suits.. (like a career woman..) i feel like snipping my hair damn short, but my hair now's quite oookkk lahh.. althou its irritating, hot, etc etc.. trying to test my tolerance.. tis mus be the longest so far.. ekks i'm blabbering to myself again.. haiz.. life sux..

Break of Dawn by Do As Infinity

I bought my long-aiming Panasonic Lumix DMC-LC50!! costs only 399~~~(n there goes 1/3 of my account~~) actually the main purpose of going to the Creative sale yest was to get the Muvo TX 256mb for bird.. budden... SOLD OUT LIAO!!! wah kaoz.. so fast.. n singaporeans r really pro in queing.. if there's a guiness world record for the earliest que-er.. singaporeans will win hands down.. jus imagine there's already a que from the door to the loading bay at the other side as early as 10.20.. [-_-||] singaporeans really dun mind queing for ANYTHING.. well ended up buying the thumb drive 256mb for bird since she INSIST she wants dat instead of the 512mb version which is the same price as the Muvo TX which we budgeted.. n dat being the only main motive, i bought home one thumb drive, one muvo slim, one panasonic cam n one free mouse.. wat the...... k lah.. the thumb drive n muvo werent mine n i went Creative sale to get something which wasnt from Creative... was tempted to get the prodikeys too but after watching the demo.. heck, its the person who's good at it.. the software aint fascinating, the beats r fixed n the keyboard's like.. the same for both version, u're plonking down 100++ for jus the software.. not worth it.. took a ride from my 2nd uncle home n slacked on the bed b4 going for drums..

drums was like.. another [-_-||] lesson.. RLRR LRLL RLRR LRLL.. still stuck at dat.. n the rhythm part.. i was like... huh wat we supposed to play actually? seems like every rhythm sounds the same wit all the mistake hits surrounding me.. ahahah.. gah blah over.. actually the paradiddles i'm quite ok lah.. IF its slow.. but the class always speed like gonzales.. hahhah.. i can play the 1st bar.. then gah blah the 2nd bar.. hohoho.. n next week no lesson~~

after drums went lips at cineleisure for pearl's bday gathering... sat n crapped from 5-8 like dat.. diana's telling her crush story, took a few pics, ate some snacks, etc etc...


Smiling nicely...


NG! NG! seriously speaking, cant rem wat we're tokking abt..


finally a nice one from the guys..